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我想起自己在过去的人生旅途中失却的许多东西–蹉跎的岁月, 死去或离去的人们, 无可追回的懊悔.
I straightened up and looked out the plane window at the dark clouds hanging over the North Sea, thinking of what I had lost in the course of my life: times goes forever, friends who had died or disappeared, feelings I would never known again.
那位空姐又走了过来, 在我身边坐下, 问我是否需要帮助.
“可以了, 谢谢. 只是有点伤感.” 我微笑着说道.
“这在我也是常有的, 很能理解您.” 说罢, 她偏了下头, 欠身离座, 转给我一张楚楚动人的笑脸:”祝你旅行顺利, 再会!”
“再会!”
The stewardess came to check on me again. This time she sat next to me and asked if I was all right.
“I’m fine, thanks,” I said with a smile. “Just feeling kind of blue.”
“I know what you mean,” she said, “It happens to me, too, every once in a while.”
She stood and gave me a lovely smile. “Well, then, have a nice trip. Auf Wiedersehen.”
“Auf Wiedersehen.”
记忆这东西总有些不可思议. 实际身临其境的时候, 几乎未曾意识到那片风景, 未曾觉得它有什么撩人情怀之处, 更没想到十八年后仍历历在目.
Memory is a funny thing. When I was in the scene, I hardly paid it any mind. I never stopped to think of it as something that would make a lasting impression, certainly never imagined that eighteen years later I would recall it in such detail.
随之, 她朝我转过脸, 甜甜地一笑, 微微地歪头, 轻轻地启齿, 定定地看着我的双眼, 仿佛在一泓清澈的泉水里寻觅稍纵即逝的小鱼的行踪.
Then she turns to me, and smiles, and tilts her head just a bit, and begins to speak, and she looks into my eyes as if trying to catch the image of a minow that has darted across the pool of a limpid spring.
井筒非常之黑, 黑得如同把世间所有种类的黑一古脑子煮在了里边.
It was deep beyond measuring, and crammed full of darkness, as if all the world’s darkness had been boiled down to their ultimate density.
“或许我还没真正理解你.” 我说, “我不是一个头脑灵敏的人, 理解一件事需要一个过程. 但只要有时间, 总会完全理解你的, 而且比世上任何人都理解得彻底.”
“I guess I don’t really understand you yet,” I said. “I’m not all that smart. It takes me a while to understand things. But if I do have the time, I will come to understand you — better than anyone else in the world ever can.”
“希望你能记得我. 记得我这样活过, 这样在你身边呆过. 可能一直记住?”
“永远.” 我答道.
“I want you always to remember me. Will you remember that I existed, and that I stood next to you here like this?”
“Always,” I said. “I’ll always remember.”
